Our future. As it is pathed.

We always wonder what will happen to us in 5 to 10 years time from now. Will we hold great jobs or should I say have started out a great career and already living life out as we wished for. Or will we be just like people around us who have worked their whole life just to see that they don't even have enough savings to go into retirement and just lead a normal but not even comfortable lifestyle? That thought of that really does scares me... Makes me wana make sure I'll work the hardest I can to make a future for myself, shut up all those nosy, idiotic,busybody, son-of-bitch relatives who have looked down on me all my life.

Yea, its true that entering a top notch school matters a whole lot, however I still think that its what inside of a person that matters more. The values, character, ability to achieve something without the help of money,power, richness that many in our society make use of to climb to where they are. Therefore, milo mei, you have to preserve, its gona be a hard to find happiness within yourself again. But once you've found that, you'll realise that its all worth it. We'll all be here for you anytime you need us, you know that. Be strong, you have it in you to be happy once again. Happiness is something that is so much more important in life then many other things ,its beyond money,power, career. Many people in life mistook happiness as something that money can buy, but no it can't be. Its the two things in life that money can't buy us.Firstly, its good health, secondly, happiness. So babe, jia you jia you jia you!

On a lighter note, meet up with monica, mei hui and mel to chill! It was great to meet up with old friends again. It was really great time! Lots to say, so little time wahahaha....we shall meet up again! It'll be fun! We'll go sing ! Wohooo! Hope everybody who's sick get well soon! Its some kinda of bug traveling around man! Its crazy! I wana be crazy!Hahaha...

Feelings.

What are feelings? Feelings, I guess are the emotions that one feels when they are happy, when they are sad ,when they are disappointment, etc. I am just seating here staring at the notebook, totally zonked out. Nosed blocked, throats totally like dry like desert and heads like mentally drained. Think I'm gona come down with a fever sometime soon.

Its just interesting how people react to different situations the way they do. Sometimes it just scares me to think that maybe all the people out there are not all that true. I'm tired.Gona rest now.

P.S. Whats with MLRs and blasting their phones so loud on the buses and trains!? Can't you just plug in your headphones and listen in quiet, and like not disturb the peace and quiet.

Depressed.

One word.Depressed. Its that feeling of all that emotions flowing through you all at once. that overwhelming feeling that makes u wonder what is really going on in your life. Suddenly, you realise that maybe everything you have worked on to built on that foundation may no longer exist, or has never really exist in the first place. I've been really emotional turmoil and its really I hate that feeling. I wish I could just know how to make it all go away. I guess I really don't know how yet.

As you stop in time for a moment, you realize that many things ain't as easy as it seem anymore. The believes that you once hold,you no longer know if you have the strength to hold them true anymore. All that certainty in life, no longer there.It is replaced by insecurities and lies that the society has polluted our minds with. Who is true? Someone tell me.

Almost all the time in our lives, people enter your life as quickly as they leave. Just like the door mate to your heart, they enter leaving in prints, and they leave. Be it friends, be it lovers, be it family. It is true that blood runs deeper then water but there are always exceptions. Its funny how like maybe seconds ago that person might have been the closest to you, only for you to learn that with a blink of an eye he/she had just disappeared forever from your life.

I think I am just writing that can never be completed writing in a moment as it is a life story of how lifes are lived.

Fun.

Meet up with Guermama, Shijia and Ian yesterday! It was fun, finally having fun once again! Its been a long time, with exams and all...I shall await the arrival of the crazy pics we all took!Muahahhaha, think with collection of fun/funny/crazy/ugly pics I've took over the years, I'll be laughing my head off when I turn old and look back at all these pictures!

Yea..sometimes life so crazy that it will make you wonder if this craziness is worth it at all? Its almost like hey, welcome to the real world! Where everything is more that what it really seems...Its really is a turmoil ride on a roller coaster! Makes you wonder why sometimes you do things against all your own principles in life! I guess its part of growing up, makes you sometimes make decisions in life that might seem even foreign to yourself at times, but still you're unable to control or understand why you make such decisions. I know I am constantly letting down the people around me, but I guess sometimes nobody will understand the decisions that sometimes or other that you make in life other then yourself. Maybe you'll think that its some excuses I'm making to cover up for the mistakes I've made in life, but sometimes its really difficult to explain why.

I've angered some people in the past few weeks,I can't really explain why , but just tell you guess I'm sorry for what I've done. Its the many events that has occurred recently that is so confusing, that sometimes I just wished that I could just dig a hole and hid it out. Till everthing is over, I can just come out again. Simple life? Not that simple after all.

Re-sur-rec-tion.

OMG!OMG!OMG!This is so not happening!!!I should just really be officially our dear fishy's agent! Seriously! Create a website for her fan club or something?! Do let me know deary! Hahaha...she's so gona kill me when she sees this!

In other news, our dear milo mei lost her wallet while in her house!!! The funniest thing I've heard in a long time...either she really is a blur sotong or our planet really has some kinda unseen forces that just transported her wallet to her dad's wardrobe without her noticing despite her rampage of the whole house! Lols, can't help but laugh ya! wells, I need I need to be working on earning more dollars during this holiday! So anyone out there who have other lobangs, please do offer me :)

I'm so yearning to go for a holiday!!! Any kind sole to sponsor me on a trip to London,Paris, Barcelona, LA or New York? Just drop me a comment will do :) Hahahahaha...thank you in advance!Hehehe...

Always Be My Baby
by David Cook.

For a moment in time
and it seemed everlasting
that you would always be mine
now you want to be free
so I’m letting you fly
cause i know in my heart babe
our love will never die,no!

you’ll always be a part of me
i’m a part of you indefinitely
boy don’t you know you can’t escape me
ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
and we’ll linger on
time can’t erase a feeling this strong
no way you’re never gonna shake me
ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby


i ain’t gonna cry no
and i won’t beg you to stay
if you’re determined to leave boy
i will not stand in your way
but inevitably you’ll be back again
cause ya know in your heart babe
our love will never end no
you’ll always be a part of me
i’m part of you indefinitely
boy don’t you know you can’t escape me
ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
and we’ll linger on
time can’t erase a feeling this strong
no way you’re never gonna shake me
ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby

i know that you’ll be back boy
when your days and your nights get a little bit colder
i know that,you’ll be right back, baby
oh, baby believe me it’s only a matter of time
of time

you’ll always be a part of me
i’m part of you indefinitely
boy don’t you know you can’t escape me
ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby
and we’ll linger on (and we will linger on)
time cant erase a feeling this strong
no way you’re never gonna shake me (oh baby)
ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby

you’ll always be a part of me
i’m part of you indefinitely
boy don’t you know you can’t escape me
ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby (no no)
and we’ll linger on (you and I will always be)
time cant erase a feeling this strong
no way you’re never gonna shake me (you & I)
ooh darlin cause you’ll always be my baby (you & I)

you and i will always be
no way your never gonna shake me
no way your never gonna shake me
you and i will always be

Good Weekend.

Hmm...how do we define if we have had a good weekend? Well...I guess you don't !hee...the weekend was not bad, studying, chilling, and walking :) Hope you all had fun and enjoyed your weekend with me! I surely did (:

Family, they are part of you when you're born,best friends, they are just like family that you found later in life and well of cos true love which you'll hope find to last hopefully forever. Guess the word forever is kinda of overrated in today's society, you'll never knows gonna happen around the corner...next minute you might just realize that what you thought truly existed was really just part your own misjudgment and blindness. Much has happened around me to make me realize that this is the truly reality...pinch me! Its true no matter how much we wish to deny it,its funny how sometimes with all the turmoil around us, what we really wish for is a simple life as my honey,dear & baby might always put it! Its true ya, sometimes the simpliest things in life, might just well be the hardest to achieve in life.

I once heard "Happiness is the only thing on earth that cannot be paid by any diamonds, gold or money."~anonymous . It really is true, happiness as I would believe is sometimes in this crazy world, the hardest thing to achieve. Easy as it sounds, sometimes if were to ask yourself when was the last time you were truly happy, I think you might have to ponder sometime before being able to answer !

It is suddenly that I realise, the world that I live in, seem to be always focus on achieving perfection.Ok...ok, I think the word perfection is overrated, but more of surviving in this demanding society, that only the almost perfect or should I say result-oriented society where almost failure might make you realise that your choices in life, which seems endless has suddenly pushed you into a direction that might make you realise later in life that, the reason you made that decision in life was because of the setback caused by this demanding world. Lousy results means lousy life as the society has defined us from a young age. Never in my life, have I been more afraid of failure then now.